It's been so long since i last blogged..gee. Oh well, life is a roller-coaster i can say..there are ups and downs..but right now, i'm pretty much excited because it's the end of my first year in college..and i hope to do more..but i'm having 3 months of break right now, so it seems that there's a long way to go..but who knows, time flies..

I've been searching for a job since May the first..but this time round, i guess i'm not going to work too much..my baby's coming to singapore in less than 26 days~! I'm soo excited:D I miss her soo much:( And i miss my other baby soo much too, i love them so much..i hope they're both doing good..everyone's not here in Singapore and most of my friends are back home abroad, spending time with their love ones..:) but m friends are coming to singapore for their summer break soon~! I'm soo excited to see them and all:) YAY..^^ i can' t wait.

Ahh i'm becoming really fat nowadays:( Someone, please help me:( I'm so going to lose some fats..okay not some, but a lot! I've been eating so much lately, maybe it's because i'm stressed out and lazy as well? I've been trying to keep up on my studies this summer:( I hope i can finish up everything before summer drifts away~!:( I'm thinking of creating a diet plan, but since i exercise almost every other day, it shouldn't be a problem..i hope my plan works..i'll just eat and not think about that:S Fruit juices are the best, FRUITS AND SALADS:)

I hope everything's going on smoothly, and i'll save so much more just for my own good:) I promise..

Yeah, i know, many things have been happening..but right now, i can't do anything, what i'll do is just to forget about it and move on with my life. Everyone makes mistakes but i do hope God would forgive me for what i've done..i'm a human and i need time as well..

The last thing that i would like to state is..guys are weirdos at times..>.<

I am waiting for my dream guy to appear, a man and not a boy of my dreams.
Tata~

I feel sick with everything that have been happening. I just don't understand some situations that is going on right now and i really hate this feeling..i wished i could understand guys more and everything like not just everything that they want but them to understand us girls, like being in our plight as well..:( Why is it so hard?

I'm sick of everything right now and i wish for this to come to an end but i just can't let it go just like that, it's just so hard. Is this what i really want? No, of course not. But i'm just hoping that something would happen, like a miracle..

Guys are just bastards and i really freaking hate this..i would never know what's gonna happen, it all takes time i know.
But everyone's leaving and it's just so sad..i'm just hurt and i know i will..

Up till now, i'm feeling so guilty about everything i did to you and like what you asked, everything's possible.
I'm feeling so down right now ..also because my baby's hurt and everything..:'(

I love you so much baby and i'll always be there for you no matter what, you'll never leave me and everything..you're my life i need you so much
Mahal Kita*

I'm just not gonna think about this anymore, any longer. It just hurts and it's gonna hurt me even more if i do that. I'll let time do the talking and fucking everything.

I hate this..

Fuck these shit. I hope things get better..

I'm so hurt. I'm so sad..these past few days were bad..i don't and i will never know if you feel the way i do but you're hurting me .. i'm so hurt by your actions..can't you feel anything? I feel i've lost my pride and dignity and everything..i've never done this ever but because of you, i thought everything would change for the better..but it actually made me feel worst..

I guess if this is what you want..so be it..i'll never talk to you again and i dont intend to for the next few weeks..i can never look into your eyes..because it hurts so much ..it's just going to upset me further..my friends told me to find another guy..there're so many guys out there for me..i know it would work because i'm pretty and everything but it's so hard..i really hope a miracle would happen even after we graduate from university..it's hard because you'll never know what might happen..i might have been attached or vice versa..who knows..:'(

I've been crying all day for the past 3 days and it kept me wonering what kind of guy you are and everything around me..i will forget about you in time to come..

You said you liked me but what is it that shows it..? it's hard..

You never cared anyway..

ARGH...

  Im' so tired..yesterday was really fun. I went out with ma sweeties..laarnii, cyaz..vanes, lexyy and met up wit the rest..ben,mich, lexy's brother(He's cute!) and was fun but ben and the rest leftearlier..so the four ofus went to catch a movie at cineleisure..=) we kind of got the 5.15pm tickets as sexylexy gotta leave earlier because of an unwanted curfew..ha ha ha. Poor sexy she must be so sad..ha ha.

Yeah we took many pictures within that few hours..well, not a lot but yeah it's all indoors..:) i'll upload the pictures sometime when they've uploaded it. Our movie ended at 7plus pm and we left for Skate Park as lexy's gotta see her boyfriend and anyway..ben and jj's there as well..so we hung around there for a bit. I didn't know alex could skate! It's cool how i wished i could haha..well, it's not really my inerest though..

We kind of went off at 8 and i took the bus home..while lexy parted with us by taking the mrt..i miss all of you sweeties..^^

well, was a fun day..ima gonna hang out with them again soon! Love ya all:D

Yeah, i went to school laterthan usual as i had a terrible stomachache..=( but i'm fine now...i think i ate too much..yeah i went to school as usual and didnt meet ellie today as i was late..im sorry ellie i didnt see your text earlier!=(( gna see you tomorrow babe..^^

 

 

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